Ugh.

Warning: TMI. But not too-TMI. It's a gratuitous pregnancy-related post. But it's my blog, so I can talk about whatever I want. So there. At least I warned you! :)

So, seriously, I forgot how much the first trimester of pregnancy S.U.C.K.S. And it seems like this pregnancy is harder than the first one. For example:

Nausea: Constant. Nausea. It gets better, it gets waaaay worse, but it is CONSTANT. This is nothing new, but the puking/dry heaving is. It's only happened a couple of times (I know, I should not complain) but it sucks.
Exhaustion: Constant. Exhaustion. Doesn't really get better, especially when working. With Eden I was in school, and I'd just skip class if I was tired. (And I did - often). But I don't have that luxury now, and I feel guilty even leaving work a little early. Plus, I've been super busy. Also with Eden I didn't have a toddler to chase around when I was at home... so that makes a difference.
Constipation: This is new. And very unwelcome. Thankfully I think I've figured out how to beat it, but whew. The first few weeks were not fun.
Getting fat: with Eden I lost 5 lbs in the first trimester, and I was worried about it. But I found those 5 lbs. And I'm three weeks away from the end of the first trimester! (Of course, I started out a lot smaller than I was when I got pregnant with Eden - I am still not at my end-of-first-trimester weight...) With the weight gain and the bloating, I started getting a little pooch way sooner. Took a picture at 7.5 weeks - and it looked like this. Le sigh.

OK, enough complaining. Really, in spite of all of this negative stuff, I sometimes get lost in the magic of it all. There is a prune-sized person inside of me. And I really do love that. As much as the pooch is a little frightening, I also love knowing that is my baby in there making itself known.

And the whole second-pregnancy thing has its advantages: I'm not freaking out about every little thing, I don't have to google every little thing, and ... drumroll .... I think I might have felt the first little movement? Yesterday morning I was lying in bed, still and quiet but awake (Eden was in bed with us, playing on her "phone"). All of a sudden, very light, barely there, I felt a flutter. And another. It was too light to be gas, too deep to be a muscle spasm or something. It seems crazy, because it's so early (9 weeks?). I felt Eden move for the first time at 15 weeks. Maybe I'm feeling movement sooner this time because my uterus is tilted forward (according to my PCP) and I know better what I am feeling for? Or maybe I'm crazy?

Anyway... That's the story. Whew. It's nice to get all that out. Thanks for listening. :)