My current ache

Today I'm missing home. I miss my friends. I miss being able to just have a deep conversation without back story, just knowing that they understand where I'm coming from. I don't know why I'm so weird lately, I just feel so disconnected. I know I have friends here, and they're great, but I just haven't found that connection. I want to delve into the deep recesses of the psyche, to swim around in someone else's head and have them swim around in mine. I want to sit and laugh over coffee. I want to sit and cry over ice cream. I am such a relational person, and though I feel like I'm willing to open up, it doesn't feel like anyone's interested, or willing to reciprocate. I know these things take time, and I know it took years to build that up in Stillwater, but I miss my base. I just feel like everyone here already has their little groups.
Don't mistake this; I know I have Bryan. And he is amazing, no doubt. But I just feel like in Stillwater I had this whole network. This gap has just ripped it apart. I need connections.